A poem for thought

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I used to have you more than friends.

I used to have, hold and love you but that all came to an end.

It seems like I am not everything you need.

Do I want what we used to have, now that depends.

All I must do now is let my heart mend.

From an aspiring writer, to a published author!

I can officially add the title of "published author" and "published photographer" onto the list of accomplishments that I have already had in my 24 years of life. Wow, how freaking cool is that? Honestly it has been a dream of mine to "make it big" with my writing. While I was so excited when The Oregon Coast Magazine featured a writing piece of mine in their magazine, I am even more excited with the fact that I co-wrote a book. A BOOK! I am so grateful, and so zealous to have had the opportunity to engage in the process of writing a book, never mind the chance to get it published.

Today was such a surreal experience for myself seeing my name on a book, as well as my picture. I kind of felt like Sandra Bullock after she won an Oscar for Best Actress from her beautiful performance in the Blindside. She was so humble, so gracious and so surprised--that is excatly how I felt today! Okay so maybe I did not have a lavish and absolutely stunning gown on, but I did have my awesome blue rain boots on after a field trip with fourth graders to The Great Salt Lake. A girl in my MAT program bought the book and then asked me to sign it. She actually wanted my AUTOGRAPH....mine! That was the first time anyone has ever asked me for my autograph and let me just say how cool of an experience that was. It's not everyday that someone wants your autograph.

Another surreal moment was when I read the first review on Amazon about the baseball book that I co-wrote. I could not believe that this stranger gave us five stars to start out his review. He was so complimentary, so honest and so nice. While I know all book reviews will not be that complimentary, it was a great way to start the process off.

I am so humbled, so happy and feel so incredibly blessed right now to have been given this great opportunity. Getting published is one of the hardest things, and here I am at 24 published. I feel like I am living a dream. Hopefully there will be other publications to come in the future, including at least one children's book.

I officially can cross getting published off my entire life bucket list. Yes, I feel so empowered when I can cross off something on my personal life list.

relationships

Throughout our whole lives we enter into new relationships, some of them last and some of them do not. We begin dating a new guy, or a new girl. We make a new friend, have a new roommate or start a new relationship with a new pet. When a new relationship starts, we (mostly meaning I) get caught up in it. What can I say I am a passionate person! Once I am passionate about someone, it's hard for me not to fully emerge myself in that relationship. While there is absolutely nothing wrong with this, it can bring up some issues. Issues that I have recently realized and am now trying to mend.

I was recently in a relationship with a boy, which abruptly ended last night to be exact. But during my time in this relationship I really put so many other things in my life on hold for him and for us. Things like: my friends, my family, my "Jenna" time and even lessened by quality of some work for graduate school. I did not go snowboarding as much as I wanted to, nor did I go out dancing and such like I used to. Basically I was still this insanely busy person, but insanely busy with school and my boyfriend. I gave up so much for us and now that us is no more.

With my newly found single status again, (which is what I know best) I realized and decided what relationships are really worth being passionate over. When I was in a relationship with Zac I neglected my relationships with my friends. While I might not have very many friends in Utah, the one's I do have I cherish. Yet here I was neglecting all that I cherished. So I have reset my pritorities, and my passions towards working to develop and improve all of my friendships and family communication. While boys will come in and out my life- good friendships last forever. Good friendships show me love everyday! I live a crazy life right now so I already have limited free time, but that limited time will now be for my friends because at the end of the day they are the one's that WOULD BAIL ME OUT OF JAIL if I needed it.

So here is to all my wonderful friends may our relationships just continue to grow with happiness and love. While I may be a bit sad about my ending boyfriend relationship with Zac, I hope that we can begin a new friendship relationship when the time is right of course.